Mike and I have been trying to buy a house for some time. What we expected to be a slow process has sped up, and slowed down with many, many bumps in the road. While we haven’t heard anyone say “Buying a house is easy!” or “My home purchase was so smooth and simple,” somehow we had the naive thought this might be. But, nonetheless, we’re getting close to owning our home and we are very excited to soon be in the house we will bring our daughter to when we leave the hospital, and send our kids off to college from (we hope).
In the meantime, I keep finding myself desperately hung up on some concerns that should be minor, but feel so major at the time. One day it was that I didn’t know how we would afford the necessary items for our baby like a crib and a car seat, another it was concerns about childcare (well, that worry lasted a little longer than a day), and yet another it was that we were being totally irresponsible by trying to do everything at once. And the thing I keep learning throughout all of this time is to HOLD ON. Every single one of these worries was completely washed away in a few days after praying about it and releasing control. Every. single. one.
Funny thing is, I knew they would be, even when I was frantic. What I’ve been learning is the patience and waiting part – that just because something hasn’t happened in this moment, doesn’t mean it won’t happen. This is big – I’m a glutton for instant gratification. Something tells me that God is tempering me to be a parent, a better wife, and a better employee.
Have you already been learning this lesson in your life? How?