On the day I turned 18, I wept all day. I can remember driving around in my little tiny Isuzu, listening to Eva Cassidy, and mourning my childhood. I believed that was the day I grew up, the day I had to become an adult.
Later, as major milestones were achieved, I continued to expect the switch to flip, awaiting the moment when I’d officially be a complete adult. Surely, it would happen by the time I had my own apartment? When I became a teacher? Or when I got married? Yet, I haven’t felt the push into true adulthood despite all those major life steps.
My life is currently under the header of DISCIPLINE.
Since my first post about starting to budget our expenses, we have been overwhelmed by the encouragement, advice and feedback we’ve received (and we’re still open to more). As I’ve been praying and thinking about it, though, I’m realizing that THE SWITCH HAS FLIPPED – I’m no longer interested in being an indulgent and selfish human being, I’m longing to live under discipline.
This discipline certainly doesn’t end with finance, it pours over into every other area of my life: home, work, school, diet, relationships, personal care… the list goes on and on. By positioning myself under the heading of discipline, and not simply indulging myself because I want something, I will actually be happier and not require the passing pleasure of a simple indulgence.